Hoong Kheen is back blogging!

I can't believe I'm back blogging tonight. I guess it is because I have too many things, ideas, rants in my mind, that I am not able to say it out to anyone.

I noticed I have been so alone, I haven't shared the things that were running in my mind with anyone for a long period of time.

It's not that I am secretive lately, but it's cuz I do not know how to express the ideas, feelings or whatever which is in my mind. And I am a bit confused too.

This has led myself into a very moody state and turned these into bad emotion and throwing of temper lately, which I have been regretting repeatedly.

So many things happening in my life right now. So many priorities to set. So many things need to be thought about. So many things making me worry.

Where is the person whom I can tell everything?

GLAD

Am feeling very happy and glad now, after looking at photos that I've always wanted to see... I think she got it.

And now I think I'm pretty much done packing for my trip back to Penang tomorrow. I am then going to Langkawi few days after. Looking forward to it! Bye KL.. I'll be back again real soon! =)

The first Kinda insomnia

it's past midnight now.. me trying to pack for Penang/Langkawi but stopped halfway....... took out all the clothes i wanna bring with me, and now i'm here writing another post of the night... realizing i've actually been having insomnia for a few nights because of that problem i have never had in my life.. this special first time kinda problem really gave me a very different feeling..
very emo, but still contented with life, wants time to pass faster... I still wanna try solving the problem and I wanna know the result...

Went to my sister's room just now just to disturb for a while..... but she was too busy with her work.. I saw a very old passport sized photo of her.. a very cute photo.. it brought back memories when we were still small.. how we fought over small things, how i bullied my sister, how we solved problems together, and thinking about now.. we're grown up, so busy with own work, progressing with life, and at the same time i was feeling grateful to have this 5 minutes time to disturb her..

Hmmmmm... i should put this as my practical emo time.. I don't feel I'm wasting time at all! lol... unlike other emo sessions... ok, i should continue packing now..

A new chapter or grief cycle?

I finally feel the urge to blog again after a long long rest.

He finally finally knew how she felt,
how forgiving she was/is,
how naive he was for taking all of it for granted,
how heart broken she has been,
how massive the consequences were/are on her life,
how idiotic he was,
how difficult it was/is to move on and to forget,
how difficult it was/is to delete those bad memories/nightmares,
how difficult it is to love properly,
that her love was an unconditional one, but...

And now that he has learned how to appreciate,
she is not there anymore,
but someone else,
but the cycle continued,
maybe as a punishment for him,
but he don't even have to love unconditionally to feel the pain,
how painful she was/is? Tell me,
As what he has always been trying in these years, the moving on continues,
but it has only always continued with time,

And currently there's two hopes,
to hope that her life is filled with life-long happiness, little regrets, and good companions,
to hope the other she can learn and understand earlier before the history repeats itself.

In two weeks time

OK, so I'm officially back blogging here. It's just so bored in Dublin. There's still 2 weeks time before I return for good to Malaysia. Just for the information, I'm flying away on the 11th of February and landing in Malaysia on 12th February.
Before that, I will be going to Andorra for a ski trip from the 1st to 8th Feb. I hope the trip will be a great European trip before I return to Malaysia. And so, now the problem is I still have about 5 or 6 days here in Dublin. I have absolutely nothing to do here. Things such as packing for shipment, bills, rents, etc. are pretty much settled. Thus, now I'm just waiting to enjoy the Andorra trip and of course looking forward to home.
I have been walking around Dublin quite a lot in these few days. Here are some photos around Dublin that I snapped. I've actually been to most of the places A LOT of times. But, you know..... I'm gonna leave for good soon, so I decided to snap some good photos for memory =)
Here you go------->

Custom House

View outside Custom House
-notice Dublin's LUAS tram passing behind me

Dundrum Shopping Centre
-one of the largest shopping centre in Dublin

Camwhoring in Fitting Room.. LOL
-I went for quite a lot of shopping these few days

Karaoke with friends

O' Connell Street
- I took this picture because I wanted to have a picture with Dublin bus ^^

Centre view of O' Connell Street

O' Connell Bridge

By O' Connell Bridge

Along the Quay

Entrance of Trinity College Dublin

Trinity College Dublin

Trinity College Dublin

Trinity College Dublin

Bank of Ireland Building

- I think it used to be the Parliament building but I'm not too sure =)

Trinity College Dublin

Royal College of Surgeons in Ireland
- of course, this is where I've studied for two and a half years ^^
- this picture is taken from the Stephen's Green Park, to get a better view of the whole building of RCSI

Side entrance of RCSI

Inside RCSI

Inside RCSI

St. Stephen's Green Park

St. Stephen's Green Park

St. Stephen's Green Park
- I feel that this is the best view in St. Stephen's Green Park. Agree??

St. Stephen's Green Park
- a flock of birds flying away together

St. Stephen's Green Park

St. Stephen's Green Park

St. Stephen's Green Park

St. Stephen's Green Park

Government Building of Ireland

Government Building of Ireland

National Gallery of Ireland

Custom House
-Front view at night

Custom House Quay at night

That's about it for this post. Will post more soon. =)

RENOVATION!

Firstly, sorry for lack of updates. I have just finished my exams. And now I have one week before going for a skiing trip in Andorra. I still really can't figure out what to do in this one week.
Anyway, I've decided to spend some time 'renovating' my blog page. In these few days, readers might notice funny changes on the layout or themes of my page. Just bear with it, I'm trying my best to make my page look better and interesting in the shortest time! =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TOO!!!

No matter what..

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what